Two things you miss most about Canberra? — sebachoo
- Good friends. There’s just something nice about talking to people who know you really well.
- My kids — Year 5/6s and Tehillah.
I’ll be back too soon for me to have much more time to miss this, though!
Went to Gunbalanya (Oenpelli) with work on Wednesday!
i’m a bad Tumblr-er.
things I’ve been learning:
- about self-control and being disciplined… not letting myself run wild and get lazy/complacent about knowing God, not excusing my behaviour when I’m upset, and not eating more than i should!
- about passing judgement on others… speck/plank?
- about pride and my tendency to get frustrated/angry when people don’t see things my way
- about loving the Church, even when they’re unlovely (What’s grace but undeserved goodness? And am I called to forgive that I haven’t already been forgiven?)
- about time out and not having to be superwoman all the time
My life in dot points
- Have not blogged since graduation;
- Have had a lot of things happen to me since; and
- Am currently away from (most of) my family and friends (and so should really blog).
So I decided to blog again!
Since graduation, I have:
- Had a lovely last summer holidays;
- Started going out with James… again;
- Welcomed my sister home from le Chine;
- Started work (which had a HUGE impact on my life);
- Attempted to mentor the Tehillah female leaders;
- Moved to Darwin.
Since moving to Darwin, I have:
- Lived overlooking the Botanic Gardens (!);
- Walked to work every day;
- Called a church ‘home’ where I could be the only Chinese-looking person;
- Been to numerous op-shops and a clothes swap;
- Worn thongs to church;
- Walked around the office without shoes on;
- Heard people swear in the office as a regular part of conversation;
- Eaten kang kong again!;
- Read my Bible every day for me and God, and not to write a Bible study;
- Been really grossed out by the book of Judges. Anyone else???;
- Not owned or housed chocolate or ice-cream (but definitely have eaten both!);
- Been to many (many!) markets… and eaten lots of yummy food;
- Felt more relaxed (although no necessarily more comfortable!) than I have in months;
- Missed people and comfortability but not Canberra;
- Missed Tehillah and my Year 5/6 kiddies;
- Felt blessed to be alive;
- Wanted to help the poor, needy and marginalised, but helpless to do so.
So that’s my life in dot points. Hopefully my next post will be sooner rather than later!
Sometimes I picture a little Von in my head, just running around doing my merry thing. But when I get stuck in a persistent sin, it’s like little Von is trapped in a glass ball, like Rhino the hamster from Bolt.
I picture myself running into the glass wall again and again, trying to get out. But to no avail. That’s when I sit down and cry and ask myself, “Why? Why?! I’m supposed to be set free in Christ. Why can I not let go of sin?”.
And that’s where Romans is so encouraging. If Paul can write this and feel like this, then I am not alone. And as he says in the final verses, when we see our helpless state, we can’t help but praise God.
“We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.”
(Romans 7:14-25, NIV)